Last week, I did something crazy. I quit my job to pursue my freelance copywriting business and personal projects.
Now, you might be thinking, “How could she possibly quit her comfy job when she’s a single mother supporting a child with special needs? Has this girl lost her mind?”
And the answer to that would be, “Yes, I have lost my mind.” But let me tell you why losing my “mind” is probably the best thing that has ever happened to me.
All my life, writing has been my passion. I never thought I could actually make money doing what I loved, but in 2007, I was hired for a full time copywriting job. The work was fun and it was secure. But this came at a pretty high price. While writing for other people every day, rushing to and from the office, and being a mommy at night, I started to lose my own voice. I stopped journaling, a practice that I had enjoyed daily for 10+ years of my life. I stopped thinking of new ideas for books, short stories and poems, and set aside my dream of ever being published. I became really good at bringing other people’s ideas to life, but my own voice got lost in the shuffle.
You know that nagging feeling that something just isn’t right? Well, I’ve had that feeling for about five years now. There are some days when I can quiet its incessant nagging, but still it whispered, “Angie, there is more to life than this.”
Over the last five years, I’ve been soul searching and trying to figure out how to chase after my dreams without going into foreclosure or dying from exhaustion. I knew that freelancing could be a great way to make money and have more time for my personal writing, but I had NO idea how to get my business of the ground. My rational mind was hard at work trying to find a sensible solution, but nothing was coming. It wasn’t until I quieted my “mind” and searched my heart that I found the answers.
My heart told me to take some chances and step outside of my comfort zone. I contacted a local marketing agency out of the blue, asking if they needed help with writing — and they did! Now, they’re a regular client. I started asking the Universe to lead me in the direction of my dreams, and with every sign that I was given, I actually followed through EVEN WHEN I WAS SCARED TO DEATH. I believed that if I took courageous, massive action on these signs I was being given, the Universe would rise up to meet me in the middle — and it has!
So, last week, when the Universe sent me a huge sign that it was time to quit my job, I listened. And I acted. I have faith that it was the right choice and that by honoring myself I will be rewarded with everything I need to support Ruby and myself.
Yes, it may seem crazy to give up the warm blanket of security that a job at a big corporation supposedly gives me, especially when the economy is still rocky. Yes, it may seem nuts to rely on the Universe for the answers and the resources I need to follow my dreams. Yes, it may seem utterly bonkers to follow your heart when your rational mind is telling you that it’s impossible.
But I believe that living the rest of my life wondering “What if?” is even crazier and far more risky. I’d rather potentially fail than assuredly lose the very essence of what makes me, me.